Ok, not sure if I already posted this e-mail forward before, but since I got it again tonight...I am re-posting it for others and with a thematic featured song - - If Tomorrow Never Comes by: Ronan Keating

Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for you’re best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid…. afraid of what we don’t know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie…the thing we fear grows stronger. Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them…when the moment you can’t feel them under your fingertips you miss them? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart … but if you don’t, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn’t. You can’t tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own… when you least suspect it, or even when you don’t want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much…for fear that the other person does not care as much, or that all. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever…

When the tears just won’t stop falling down I’ll be there, so you see I’ll be there until the end. This is a promise I can make, if you ever need me just give me a call and I’ll be there… Time is the best gift you’ll ever receive, don’t take it for granted. Tell everyone how much they mean to you, you may not get the chance tomorrow.

 I LOVE YOU!

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I spend most of my day on the Internet and usually sign-off between 11 p.m. to 2:00 a.m. -- but these past few days I’ve been staying online later and later because I am still a bit restless from crying my heart out last Friday morning.  The kind of crying when you feel as if something is being hammered into your heart -- My Skippyheart. 

I love the peacefulness and quietness of the night, but sometimes with it comes vulnerability - like tonight.

What I think I need is a break -- I am going to take my long overdue vacation...

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Come and lay down by my side
'till the early morning light
All I'm takin' is your time.
Help me make it through the night.

I didn't go to work for this morning was such a bad start for me...the uncertenties, disappointments and storms of my life just seem to be resurfacing again. 

I hate being out of control.  I have such an immense fear, such a profound feeling that radiates into my soul...it is not very easy to control my mind and stop the habit of worrying and fear of not knowing what the future holds.  I fear the narrow, winding and bumpy road of life...I hate being away of my comfort zone but I know better -- after all of the life's battle I fought and won, this too shall pass...but please give me the strength to carry on.  Remind me that  Iam not alone, for You are always with me Lord...

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When I think I’m going under, part the waters Lord.
When I feel the waves around me, calm the sea.
When I cry for help O hear me, Lord, and hold out Your hand.
Touch my life, still the raging storm in me.

Knowing You love me through the burdens I must bear,
Hearing Your footsteps let’s me know I’m in your care;
And in the night of my life You bring the promise of day.
Here is my hand, show me the way.

Here is my pain, heal it once more.