I spend most of my day on the Internet and usually sign-off between 11 p.m. to 2:00 a.m. -- but these past few days I’ve been staying online later and later because I am still a bit restless from crying my heart out last Friday morning.  The kind of crying when you feel as if something is being hammered into your heart -- My Skippyheart. 

I love the peacefulness and quietness of the night, but sometimes with it comes vulnerability - like tonight.

What I think I need is a break -- I am going to take my long overdue vacation...

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Come and lay down by my side
'till the early morning light
All I'm takin' is your time.
Help me make it through the night.

I didn't go to work for this morning was such a bad start for me...the uncertenties, disappointments and storms of my life just seem to be resurfacing again. 

I hate being out of control.  I have such an immense fear, such a profound feeling that radiates into my soul...it is not very easy to control my mind and stop the habit of worrying and fear of not knowing what the future holds.  I fear the narrow, winding and bumpy road of life...I hate being away of my comfort zone but I know better -- after all of the life's battle I fought and won, this too shall pass...but please give me the strength to carry on.  Remind me that  Iam not alone, for You are always with me Lord...

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When I think I’m going under, part the waters Lord.
When I feel the waves around me, calm the sea.
When I cry for help O hear me, Lord, and hold out Your hand.
Touch my life, still the raging storm in me.

Knowing You love me through the burdens I must bear,
Hearing Your footsteps let’s me know I’m in your care;
And in the night of my life You bring the promise of day.
Here is my hand, show me the way.

Here is my pain, heal it once more.